hi!

i've recently moved into college and have realized that i actually have a very good amount of agency. so much so that i have decided at this late time of day, im going to leave my dorm room (sorry kv if i woke you up when i opened the door), come to this nice study lounge, and create a feature on my website where i can write. i think i have many good reasons to start doing something like this. for one, about 20 minutes ago, i was sitting in my bed scrolling on insta reels and looking at what mutuals i had other mutuals with, so clearly was not doing anything productive. hopefully doing this brain dumping thing at night will help alleviate this sort of leftover "inertia" from the rest of the day, and so then i can go to sleep with a mind at peace not nagging me abt a thought i really want to write down. second, i have a BANK of vocabulary words stored in my brain which i want to use. using big vocabulary words is an ultimate dopamine boost, but simply knowing and holding onto them is not enough. i must find a way to publicize this immense knowledge of the english language, and i see no way better way to do it than with this. i was also messaging my friend samuel today and realized that i don't properly articulate what i want to actually communicate A LOT. definitely needs some fixing; concious writing practice should be the solution!